Got a problem with the way I RP Subaru? Want to give some pointers to help me keep him on the right path? Or maybe you just want an explanation for something he just did or something he's done or said in the past? Comment here and let me know!

Likewise, this post will also be used for the good ol' "relationship meme". If you want to know how Subaru feels about your character at any point in time (this means that you can comment one day, and if you feel there's been a change in their relationship, comment next week for an update), just comment here, asking about how Subaru feels about your character.

( Private | 80% Hackable, due to distraction )

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I have become useless once more. Perhaps destiny is the only thing left for me now.


[[OOC: Yeah ... due to the timing of Hokuto being dropped and the ghost event starting right after that, Subaru thinks someone killed his sister again -- thus, the temporary angst.]]

... H-Hokuto-chan ... Seishirou-san ...

... s-stop ... I don't want to see this ... I ... [The sound of glass breaking is heard. Out of frustration, Subaru punched a mirror (He has to stop doing that, no wonder bad stuff keeps happening to him).

Afterwards, muttering that sounds like complete gibberish being chanted can be heard. He's trying to use his power as an onmyouji to make the ghosts disappear, but it's not working.]


[[OOC: He doesn't know that Hokuto left Luceti yet on top of all this :|;]]

I ... hn ... I would prefer it if my actions that time were to be forgotten, but that's likely too much to ask.

[Private to TRC!Subaru]

... I need to speak with you. In person.

[Private to Hokuto]

I'm ... sorry for worrying you. I'll return home shortly.

[/Private]

... he has been gone for some time now, and I've said nothing. It's no ones business, as it is. It has always been only between him and myself, always. Gone. I suppose this means he's gone for good, unless he becomes one of the returners.

... I am the fourteenth ... must I ...? Hn ... I'm thinking too much.

... all of you, check your wings. Something isn't right.


[[OOC: Subaru's noticed that the feathers on his wings are shedding a lot more than what's healthy (and that he can't feel them), so he's just making sure everyone else is alright and that he didn't get some sort of rare disease or what have you. Also, I'm not sure whether or not the groups A) met up and are on their way back or B) are back at all.]]

... my power. It's ... back to it's normal state again? How did--

... something isn't right. Has something happened to the Malnosso themselves?

... I will be the one to stop him. Seeing her die once more and again being helpless to stop it ... I refuse to let him continue any longer. Even if death is not an eternal rest in this world, it's still ... death.

If he comes near my sister again after her return, I-- ...

[Filtered to the Blue Rogues]

I'm ... sorry I could not be of more help.

[Filtered to Diavolo -- Hackable to those who try hard enough]

I will be the one to kill you.


[[OOC: Hello tharr aftermath-of-DiavoloVSBlueRouges encounter. As noted, Hokuto was found dead on the scene, and Subaru (to put it lightly) did not take it very well. At all. When everyone else left, he stayed behind for a few hours before returning home, where he more or less has been quietly stewing in rage over seeing his sister dead again. People who've spoken to him for a bit miiight pick up that his voice sounds a little strained, but eh.]]

... I don't believe anything too damaging happened for me. Although it's ... strange that I was young for such a long stretch of time. I can't remember everything, but most of it is clear. I'm thankful my nature was not taken advantage of during that time except in a few cases, Usagi.

Everyone else has returned to normal now as well, haven't they?


[[OOC: That strike-out is purposely only visible to Usagi XD; His younger self may not have caught on, but his older self kinda reviewed that and did. He doesn't mind, but yeah.

Also, this is backdated to before this thread, due to the potential of severe injury and other ouchies. Oh Subaru, stop getting into fights ._.; Also, edited for dyslexic moment.

Edit: Also, feel free to ask Subaru why a naked grown man just waltzed out of his house. He ... kinda forgot that Seishirou was still around in the house (he had a headache from remembering the things that happened, so some things were skimmed over and forgotten temporarily) and kinda required clothing after changing back to his proper age.]]

I think things are starting to become relatively safer here now ... I think. I haven't noticed anything too horrid for a little while now, but I'm still going to keep a lookout for anything.

Even if it is somewhat safer, it's still--

Regardless, is the aging/de-aging experiment getting worse or better? I really can't tell anymore.

[Filtered to Usagi]

Usagi, I have something for you!

[Filtered to Rena]

Rena, I'm a bit curious about some things ... can I ask you a few questions?


[[OOC: Figured I'd let him say and do a few things before I'm off to Otakon. If anyone has any reason to talk to or in any way interaction with Subaru before he changes back, now'd be the best time, regardless of the content of this post.]]

[Filtered from the children]

I don't like the feeling I get from this place. There's something very wrong with the atmosphere here, and I don't mean the Malnosso.

Everyone seems as if they've just ... given up on ever breaking free from this world, or at the very least taking down the Malnosso. I've heard that some people have tried, but it sounds as if they tried alone, or at most in a pair. Things won't work that way if we don't try to work together, I know it. Not everyone has lost hope, have they?

If you want to stay here for whatever reason, then do you really want to live your life as entertainment for the Malnosso? Especially if you were to start families, or really go forward with a new life in this world.

At the moment, I'm more concerned about some other things I've heard and seen through this journal. There are people here who could possibly hurt, or even kill, other residents, and I haven't heard of anyone trying to stop them. Everyone ... does know about these dangerous people ... don't they?

[/Filtered]

... the amount of children here is a bit unsettling. I really hope there are people out there taking care of them, especially the very young ones.

[By the fountain in the center of town which is literally like ... five feet away from his house, Subaru's there with the dog he no longer remembers the name of, just playing with her. Feel free to bug him.]


[[OOC: ... what? I'm almost off my poor excuse of a semi-hiatus anyway ...]]

[It kinda sounds like someone's either pacing or walking around the room.]

... n-no ... this definitely isn't my apartment and I know I haven't been here before ... [pacing stops] ... if I'm able to wander around, I don't think it's a kidnapping ... but still ... did Hokuto-chan move me somehow?


[[OOC: :| ... I really have to stop procrastinating. Responses will moderate from immediate to massively delayed.]]

Subaru has been injured, both Kamuis have been taken ... and now Hokuto has been as well. Something seems different about it, somehow. I would have preferred to not leave the house in this ... condition, but it could be worse. I have to see if there's anything that can be done -- it's better than simply sitting around, allowing myself to accept all of this.

Rena, I apologize if I'm not around the house very often. I won't leave you alone there for very long, though.

Subaru ... are you feeling any better now?

[Filtered to The Earl]

As I'm sure you know by now, I have no need for your services, nor will I call upon them at any point in time.

[/Filtered]


[[OOC: So yeah, just in case no one knows, Subaru pretty much adopted Rena, figuring both he and his sister would be around for her, but lol, Hokuto's gone now, so a 25 year old man just asked a 16 year old girl to live with him. Good thing Subaru's still innocent-minded enough that he doesn't see anything wrong with that. And yeah, what he said probably sounds kinda ... wrong, but the reason he took her in was so she wouldn't be alone, so it makes sense for him to say that.]]

[There's a dog whining and the sounds of it scratching at the door, occasionally letting out a little bark.]

... no ... I'm not going out there looking like this ...

[In the background, a cry from a hawk (or, if your character can't specify it to THAT extent, a bird of some sort) can be heard.]

... I-I'm sorry ... I'm not going near the window.

Please, both of you ... not today. Go ahead without me.


[[OOC: He's heavily embarrassed, not pleased, and his 'pets' are bitching at him because they want to go for a walk around the area with him and he's all "hell no". Not a good day for this Sumeragi. Feel free to feel his pain, other heavily embarrassed muses. O-oh right, and he was given a little black dog plush, which he's actually got in his arms because it's cute and it's a dog he can.]]

[Filtered From The Earl and Hokuto, Viewable To Everyone Else]

Is it really true? Can he really bring the dead back to life? Something seems a bit off about his offer, though ...

... it's taken much too long. I only killed him so he would know ... not so he would disappear ...

[/Filtered]

Another group has been brought in, I see. Don't the Malnosso have enough of us as it is?


[[OOC: Uhm ... yeah. Can at least one of the exorcists smack some sense into him before Luceti gets a new akuma because of him? >>; And strikes are indeed hackable.]]

... how long does it normally take for those who have died in this world to return?

[The only sound there is for the longest time is the wind blowing through the trees. On the page, several drops of blood are falling repeatedly in the same places, making the blood spots on the page larger as time goes on.]

... heh.


[[OOC: He'll respond, but he'll be pretty apathetic about it. Tags will go at a normal pace for a few hours, but after that, they'll either be massively slow or non-existent until Monday. Also, no, Subaru is not amused by what he did to Seishirou (that thread is still on-going, by the way), he was just kind of doing a "heh" of "and I thought I'd never have to do that again". More or less laughing at himself, kinda.

Oh, and unless someone literally drags him from where he is (in the forest, sitting and leaning against a tree, covered in blood that's lol not his), figure that Subaru's hermitting it up in a cave somewhere for a few days.]]

[The first thing the journal picks up is the sound of a window breaking -- Subaru's so pissed off that he failed to protect his sister when he was very close by that he misjudged his punch-to-the-wall and ended up putting his fist through the window. Hey, it's dark, give him a break. Oh, and Soujirou didn't make things any better by pretty much mocking him when he told him to stay out of things. Actually, he activated Subaru's trap card really sent him reeling over the borderline in terms of how much control he had over his Sakurazukamori self, so if he happens to run across that guy, the dude is tree food.

Regardless, there's some talking in the background, seemingly one-sided (he was talking to Soujirou through Hokuto's journal). When that stops and he goes to his own journal to say something, he sounds far from friendly and welcoming.]

You. All of you. Keep out of my way unless it is your wish to be one with this earth. It should be a simple enough task for your minds to grasp, under these conditions especially.

Seishirou. Choose a location.

[[OOC: Okay, in case it's not obvious enough, Subaru's extremely P.O'd. He'll answer people while he's storming off towards the barrier (or to whatever location Seishirou chooses), but don't expect him to be anywhere near as kind as he usually is. I'm also hoping that it's not just CLAMP characters who respond to his post, too.

Oh, and if anyone wants to action post this thing for whatever reason, then you can catch him on his way to the forest -- he's got a lantern on him, so he can be spotted. Also, if you do decide to go in the path of action IM me, because if you engage him in conversation for more than 10 seconds in person, he's going to attack you. The AIM screen name is Consella Rion.]]

[Seeming out of nowhere, an almost ghostly cherry blossom tree appears in the backyard of house #48. It's fairly bright and could probably give a fair amount of light to any homes surrounding #48.

Over the journals, a voice is accidentally picked up.]

... so I ... I really am the-- ...


( OOC Explanation -- not as long as I thought it'd be, but behind a cut regardless. )

( [Cut to save space] )

[Hokuto had taken Subaru to the clinic and may or may not have been planning something if he tried to leave, so Subaru just decided to stay and take care of his injury (or lack thereof) himself. After he cleaned off all the blood and took off the bandages he had when he woke up, he's met with a ... bit of an interesting surprise. After a while, the journal comes on. (Just in case someone in the clinic wants to do an action thread with him, he's in one of the clinic's rooms, looking out the window with his journal next to him and definitely not facing the door. Oh yeah, and there's a very, very bloody cloth in his hand. Like, you'd think it was supposed to be red :|)]

... I wonder if he had somehow put them up to this. I doubt that to be the case, but ...

... why would these Malnosso do this to me? My eye is-- ...


[[OOC: I CAN'T COUNT, GAIZ. I JUST ... CAN'T :| Seriously, "1 2 3 4 3 4 5 6 7 8 9"? Really, Kyio. Numbers -- you're doing it wrong. Edit: Yeah, I was talking about the numbering in X!Subaru's post titles :|; I didn't change them, so if you look, you'll see what I mean.

Edit: Yeah, I decided to just put the whole "big reveal" in this post instead of posting again tomorrow. Made sense to me. If you're too lazy to interact with him to see what the fuss is about, just take a look at his icons and you'll get the gist of it.]]

Fuuma and Kotori seem to have disappeared from the house ... so I suppose they've been sent back. At least he's not around to aggravate me any longer ... and I guess Hokuto and I will have to cook for ourselves from now on.

A large number of people have suddenly made an appearance here, just like last month. This shouldn't come as a surprise, considering it happens every month, but the number of people seems to be on the rise. Others have noticed besides myself, correct? I'm not sure if there's a reason behind it or

[The writing stops there and the voice recording system thingy whatever-the-hell-it-is turns on]

... again? [A LOT of struggling and fighting and all that fun stuff before it suddenly stops. Footsteps leaving the room while dragging something is heard for a few seconds before the recording turns off]


[[OOC: Yep, kidnapped again, and for reals this time. If I get an okay from a mod, then he might come back a ... little different. You'll see, maybe.]]

( Accidental Voice (cut to save room, even though it's not long) )

... regardless, even though it seems to be somewhat quiet here, I've heard several things over the journals and outside, so I know it's not as peaceful as it seems. I hope the majority of those here are doing well ... if there's anything I can do, I-- ... just tell me.

Also, I never thanked that person ... the one who came to heal me when I was injured a while ago. If you can hear this, then ... thank you for that. I also want to apologize to the blond girl who came in my room at the clinic the day my sister arrived here. I appreciated your attempt at trying to speak with me and I'm sorry for throwing it away.

[Filtered to Hokuto]

If you're feeling better, I need to talk to you about something.

[Filtered to X!Fuuma]

You knew my sister and I were here, yet you never said a word. Did you just want to wait for me to notice myself to make me look like a fool for not knowing or did you not realize it either?

[Filtered to X!Kamui]

... I figured you should probably know this -- the house I am currently living in ... Fuuma and Kotori are here as well.


[[OOC: Just trying to cover all the bases of what Subaru could possibly say for a while so that I don't end up over-posting with him again, like I did last month. Also, yes, he's talking about Raine and Usagi in the little "thank you/sorry bout that" part of his post before the filtered parade. Also, Subaru has totally never spoken to Kakyou before so ... lol. No honorable mention for you :|]]

Things seemed to have quieted down a bit more ... until just recently. I apologize to anyone who is being disturbed by the odd storm outside; I'll see if there's anything I can do about it.

Also, I've yet to find Kamui, which leads me to believe someone found him before I could and took him somewhere, unless he too had been taken by the Malnosso. If that person would, could you tell me where he is currently?

[Filtered to X!Seishirou]

... what are you doing?


[[OOC: Alright, first off -- I'm trying to make X!Subaru less CLAMP-centric; he's fairly anti-social, so it's hard for me to just have him go up to people unless it's something that he would believe to be a short-lived conversation. Even that is something he's not used to doing anymore, so ... yeah :| Help?

Also, I got confused as to what was going on with Duo and X!Kamui, so I'm assuming he was moved to the clinic before Subaru managed to get back? If that's not the case, then can one of you two please let me know what's going on with that? Alright, I know where he is now. But yeah ... X!Subaru doesn't so ... :| ...]]

[Just the sounds of someone clumsily walking along, occasionally taking a break to rest against a tree or something]

... aggravating ...


[[OOC: Yeah, I know, some of you are either saying "wtf he just got taken yesterday" while others are like "I thought you said you were bringing him back tonight in EST land :|", but apparently, I'm going to be busy for most of this afternoon, tonight, and tomorrow, so I'm just putting this up now. I'll still be responding to tags but ... not too often :| He's not exactly messed up -- he's just got some bruises, a cut on his cheek, and a cut on one of his arms. Let's just say the Malnosso took him, kinda looked at him like "... eh :|", and threw him out and took his sister instead. He's in the forest, on his way back to the village, but he's just taking his time because he's tired >>;]]

[There's nothing but dead silence for a while until the sound of footsteps approaching is heard. Someone standing up quickly, various growls, scattered sounds of movement seemingly from all directions, sounds of obvious struggle, a body being thrown against the wall, then silence again for a few more moments. All that's left to hear is footsteps walking away, dragging something along as they do so.]



[[OOC: ... what? >>; So yeah, Subaru got Mallynapped, as if the guy didn't have enough problems. I'm mostly doing this because I've been, for the most part, ignoring my other muses (well, not Yukimaru, but still) because of how active Subaru got right from day one ._.; He'll be gone for a few days, so I guess he can count this as an extended vacation from everything >>; Lord knows the guy needs it.

OOC Edit: lol Actually, I'll bring him back tomorrow night. He can angst about the fact that the Malnosso took him, kinda said "... eh, forget it", and dumped him out within a day >>;]]

( [Private | Hackable by those who know him] )

[After he's done writing, he gets up, fixes the bed he was staying in, gets his stuff together, and starts heading for the clinic's exit. He may seem as if he were alright enough in what he had written in his post, but his eyes look almost lifeless. He probably wouldn't respond to anyone at this point, since his only objective is to leave the clinic and find some place to hide himself away until he either calms down or someone finds him and drags him back to civilization. Still, anyone in or near the clinic is free to try stopping him.]


[[OOC: First off, that strike-out in his written post isn't completely readable, but if you stare at it long enough, you can make out some of it.

So yeah ... to put it simply, Subaru's planning on going into one of the caves and hiding himself away for a while, since everything happened at once and he just ... well ... can't take it anymore :| The man not only needs a break, but he also is trying to protect everyone by staying away and hoping X!Seishirou doesn't bother them if he does so. Oh yeah, and his wound from his fight with Lute? Totally not completely healed yet, but it's healed enough that he can move around without much difficulty.]]

[Filtered away from Hokuto]

I should've known she would write something like this. I know what she's trying to do and I'm not going to fall for it so quickly. Years ago, I may have fallen for it right away I won't hide from her much longer, but I just need ... at least another day to accept all of this.

I do feel a bit guilty, taking this the way I am, but I ... can't help my reaction.

[Private to Self; 70% Hackable]

... anything is better than him ending up here.

[Filtered to X!Kamui]

I take it you know who's here as well.

Edit: [Filtered to Hokuto and X!Kamui]

I have a horrible feeling all of the sudden ... Hokuto, come to the clinic. Kamui, allow her to pass.


[[OOC: Yeah ... Subaru doesn't really care too much about who reads that private line, since no names are named, but yeah ... I saw that we're getting a Seishirou soon. There goes X!Subaru's mind >>; Don't mind him, he'll probably just grab his sister, flee to the caves and become Aros' new next door neighbor :| After he's done have a complete mental breakdown, of course.]]

[over the journal, there's panicked mutterings, sounds of panic and complete disbelief, and if you're really listening carefully, you can maybe pick up that he's crying too]

I-Imposs-- ... not ... not her ...



... H-Hoku ... to-chan ...


[[OOC: Alright, for those of you unfamiliar with X/1999 or Tokyo Babylon, know this -- Hokuto is Subaru's twin sister and she was murdered by (well, she willingly sacraficed herself, but still) the X (or TB) version of Seishirou (not the one that's here!). He was already having a hard enough time with Seishirou (and doing a good job of hiding it, since it wasn't REALLY him), but this isn't something he's taking well, as well ... if your twin sister who was killed by the man you loved and was dead for almost seven years suddenly popped up, clearly alive, would you take it well?

... regardless, he's still in the clinic and he's having a breakdown. Fun times :| Just wait until he finds out Fuuma's around too.]]

[There's a soft groan of pain in the background and the sound of sheets being shuffled a bit, as if he's shifting in place a bit.]

Ngh ... how could I have been so careless ...? If I had just ... moved a bit faster ... I could've done more ... and perhaps he wouldn't have had to see him like that ...

[Some more sounds of the sheets being moved a little, and the voice is clearer]

... hn ... I really was able to change him back to normal with my power, at least momentarily ... I should have thought of trying that sooner ... then maybe that girl wouldn't have had to get injured ... hn, I wonder if she's recovered yet.

[Again, the sheets can be heard a little. He knows he's not supposed to move with his injury, but he's restless and worried, considering the last thing that he remembers was being carried off by the other Subaru. The voice gets softer again]

Hopefully, the effect lasted long enough to be of use ... to see someone like Lute in such a condition ... [sighs] I didn't expect him to be so strong either ...

... Kamui ... please be alright ...


[[OOC: Just so it's known, this is about a day after the thread with personality-event!Lute. He was completely burned out (that and the blood loss) and didn't wake up for almost a full day, so ... yep >>; Oh, and he really did manage to switch Lute's personality back to normal for a few moments with his chanting ... too bad he realized he could do this after he got severely injured ._.; I should be asleep, geez.]]

I found him.

I don't know if my techniques can help him, or at least cause him to switch back for a moment or two, but I have to try. I don't want you to suffer by the hand of a loved one because of this whole ordeal we're being put through in this world.

Kamui ... I'm sorry.

[A long while passes before a low voice post is made. There are also bloodstains on the page. Just about anyone in town should be able to notice a very large five-pointed star barrier there in the sky, starting to disintegrate.]

S-someone ... come to th-- ... star ... in town ... --ute needs ... be subdued ...


[[OOC: Subaru doesn't know shizz about filtering, so anyone can respond to this. Don't expect an answer, though ._.; Just so it's known, the person he's talking about 'using his techniques' on is a now personality-event!Lute. He's planning on trying to stop him so that Kamui isn't forced to and he doesn't have to suffer :| My Subaru muse needs some knock-out meds or something, I swear.]]

[There isn't any sound for a while, other than some shuffling and the occasional sigh. Finally, after a while, a low voice is heard, clearly muttering to himself]

... didn't wake up in time, did I? ... Is it over already? Have I ... passed on, then?

[Another sigh and the voice just gets a bit quieter, as if it were being muffled by something]

Kamui ... I wonder ... would I have been any use to you if I did make it in time ...?